My Straight-Edge Story

Sharing an older post from Instagram! Get to know a little more about me. 

Today is Edge Day, when the straight-edge community celebrates. I have always been the lone wolf. The girl in high school and college who never drank at parties. Never did drugs. Always had to explain “No, I don’t want just one sip.” The girl who got her heart broken by her first serious boyfriend when he chose smoking pot over hanging out with her. The girl who always crushed on her guy best friend in college but refused to date him unless he stopped smoking pot. The girl who worked in the music biz, constantly at shows where people were drinking and never fit in. Now, I’m the mom with a big SXE tattoo on my arm who doesn’t drink in the midst of mommy wine culture and pot being legal.

It hasn’t been easy to deal with others, find accepting friends, meet a mate who shares a little bit of my mentality. But to me, the choice to be sxe is simple and it’s probably the biggest part of who I am, even though I don’t shout it from the rooftop or preach my lifestyle to others. If you know me, you know, but I don’t make it a point to discuss. But today I do want to say something and maybe connect with others like me. I once wanted to write a book called SXE stories and started a MySpace page to find people🤣

There’s many reasons why I’m sxe. For most people, it starts with the hardcore punk scene. For me, it starts with a traumatic childhood, growing up with a parent who had substance abuse problems. I have seen alcohol and drugs ruin childhoods, families, lives… I was that little girl. I had to find outlets to focus on to find happiness and escape what was going on at home (music, writing). And I never want to be that person for myself or my kids. I pray as I raise my kids that I set a good example and they make safe choices when they get older. I try so hard to be present, healthy, a safe person, and good example for my kids to break generational trauma and pain.

I just want to say… if you are sxe and finding it hard to find where you fit in, keep at it. Stay true to yourself and the people who are meant to be in your life will find you. And I am always here to talk!
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